Dear Future Me...

Dear Odette (A.K.A Me In 2 Years): 


Hey how am I? How are we doing in 2015? Well, right now I am not doing too well as you must know. I'm having a hard time right now, with everything. I just want to know are we feeling the same as we are now? If so I want tell myself, you, not to give up. I know we have been wanting to give up everyday, because is it really all worth it? But it is worth it in the end, because when we get to where we want to be we can smile and say "Hey I did it.". 

This is your story. This is our story and we have to finish this story with an ending we can be proud of. Some day we will hear a victory fanfare just for us, but until then you keep on fighting a splendid performance. I know we have the potential and the determination to do great things. So advance onward and maybe some day tell me all about our journey.

Right now these times will try hard to define us and we have to try to keep our head held high, even though we feel several steps behind. I know there is someone out there that has it much worse than us, but we have dreams too of a life we want. I know it may seem like we are failing and may get to the point where we feel beaten, but I want you to know that the hard times will pass. They will pass. I just hope it is not long for us to see them pass. 

So when we are on the precipice of defeat please stand up and be strong. Believe in yourself when you feel the pressure of challenges in your wake, and with our sheer endeavor stand and believe you can be strong for us. Do not give up on yourself we can get through this! We are going to make it!  


Sincerely, 
The you that believes in you. 
Odette 

Forgive me so.

Forgive me so.
Forgive me here. Forgive me now.
Forgive me today. Forgive me tomorrow.
Forgive me never, because never is never too late.

I stood behind you and never faced you.
I stood behind you and held a knife.
I stood behind you and stabbed you in the back.
I stood behind you when all along I should have stood beside you.

Forgive me so.
Forgive me for a minute. Forgive me forever.
Forgive me at breakfast. Forgive me for all three meals.
Forgive me at the start line. Forgive me at the finish line.

You say you forgive me.
You say it so well.
You say it with a smile.
You say to me forget about it.

You forgave me so.
You forgave me for a week. You forgave me for a month.
You forgave me but we do not speak. You forgave me but we are not friends.
You forgave me but it will never be the same. You forgave me but never is never too late.

I stood behind the mirror but all I saw was the knife.
I stood behind the mirror but all I saw was a liar and an enemy.
I stood behind the mirror but all I saw was regret.
I stood behind the mirror and I did not see us beside each other.

I cannot forgive myself so.
I cannot forgive myself here. I cannot forgive myself now.
I cannot forgive myself today. I cannot forgive myself tomorrow.
But never is never too late.

Forgiving myself is the hardest part.
Forgetting is even harder sometimes.
Having a grudge is difficult to bear.
Letting go seems almost impossible.
But never is never too late.

So forgive others so.
Forgive yourself so.
Forget about it and move on.
Because I think it's time to let go.

Love and Happiness *Al Green voice*

     Everyone wants to be happy because it is one of life's greatest feelings. Everyone wants to be loved and adored by someone who understands them and cares for them. Falling in love with someone is one of life's treasures, because everyone wants to find love. When a person loves another person sparks fly and happiness for both people are achieved. A reason that love is important for all is because love creates passion which gives a person purpose to love another. When a person cares for another they will be willing to do the unthinkable and go to the beyond for their loved one. This gives the person a purpose, a purpose to protect, a purpose to love, and thus creates the greatest happiness with that person. Another reason love is significant is because love is kind and love is patient. When a person loves another they understand each other, are kind out of their heart, and patient with who their companion may be. This feeling is what everyone wants to feel someday and to have a person that is patient with them. Love is also important because without love for anything there is only hatred left which brings sorrow. Love brings happiness, because when loving someone it makes us smile. A final reason for love being important is that everyone wants to feel secure and feel needed. Everyone wants to be there for someone and to understand someone. People may not feel like they want to care for others or seem like they do not want to but everyone wants these feelings. I personally have never felt the feeling of love. I have family and friends that love me as I love them, but I have never had a companion or boyfriend to love. Sometimes I think that will never happen because I am just me and that is all I will ever be. Besides love is a gushy mess, love is overrated and overexposed, and I also have my love for video games and that is all I need. (Not really).

Accept me or Reject Me?

       Rejection. Rejection is something that happens to everyone at some point in their lives. It is a feeling of hurt when it happens to someone, because you want to be accepted and not excluded in a group or in a person's life. Rejection also hurts because everyone wants have the approval of others, because everyone wants someone special in their lives. Everyone wants to feel as if they are not alone in the world, and that they have someone to lean on. Everyone wants to be apart of something and be around people that accept them for who they are.
     When others reject someone they should do it in a nice way or respectful way no matter how much you do not like that person. When others reject someone and they are rude and cruel it is wrong, because that person is shunned and all they will be struck with unhappiness. Rejecting someone like this could be a form a of bullying and bullying usually starts with a group or person not accepting someone else for just being themselves.
    People deal with rejection in their own way and the way some are affected is always different. Some may try to ignore it and shut it out of their minds but that is always difficult to do no matter what the situation is. Others may accept the rejection and move on with their lives because they know things will get better and they will find someone that accepts them for who they are. But sometimes there are others that cannot deal with the rejection they have experienced and they shut down and it dwells over them like a grey cloud of sadness and depression, because they think no one will accept them for who they are. I know it may seem like there is no one that will accept them, but they will find people that accept them for who they are. I am living proof of this.
    I know what it is like to be rejected and bullied, because it has happen to me plenty of times before. I know it hurts it for a while and a while may seem long, but I kept my head up and I know it's hard to accept but it's the only way to get through. I found people that accept me for who I am and that never rejected me and approved of my personality. It may have taken some time but there were people that would care about me and accept me and not push me away. I am really thankful for my true friends that I have today because without them I would be lost.

I Blame You!

In life everyone has responsibilities to attend to. When I am involved in something that I am responsible for whatever happens to me, the situation, or someone else I always try to be a mature person and do the right thing. I know that there are situations that may not seem like it is my fault, yet someone else does see it as my fault in a problem. Usually I take blame for things, because I know I was responsible.
There was a time when I was responsible when my niece and nephew were under my watch and I had lost sight of them. I went inside to grab something and they were gone! I never panicked so much in my entire life! My father said I was responsible for them and it was all my fault that they were missing, but we soon heard screams of laughter and loud giggles coming from across the street. I instantly knew that they went to play with the kids across the street. When I found them I was really upset, but all they wanted to do was play and they were sorry. I was grateful that they were still with me and not in the back of some crazy guy's van. If they had gone missing it would not have been their fault because they are only children and I should be watching them like a hawk at all times. It would have definitely been my if they were taken away because it was my responsibility to watch them.
As a the mature person that I am, I would take responsibility and for things because it is the right thing to do. I am a generally nice person and I would know if I did something wrong or not. even if it truly was not my fault I will still try to be responsible and respectful to help the situation that I am in involved in.

"Hey what are you doing?" Oh just writing some stuff.

             Whenever I have free time I am always working on different projects, because I try to do productive things. I have so many projects that I am working on currently, that I sometimes do not always know what project to even work on. It can sometimes be so difficult to choose to do something because I have so many projects to work on. I try to work on multiple things but end up focusing on one project. A major project that I am working on currently is writing stories. I know it may sound silly to write when I do not even have to, but I love to write. I think I that I may have developed a brainstorming disorder, because wherever I may be my brain is always thinking of new ideas for a story. This happens to me all the time no matter what I may be doing at the moment. Sometimes it is a good thing because I get good ideas but sometimes it is a curse because my brain is always giving me so many ideas that I have too much to work with. I try to write things down before I forget an idea but by the time I have a paper and a pencil I forget that certain idea.
        I have a lot of ideas to write about that I have never actually finished one. I have been writing ever since I was younger and I still have not finished those ideas from then either. I just cannot seem to be able to finish a story because while I am writing one story I have an idea for another and I begin anew. I have decided to work on writing and completing them whenever I have time. I feel as if they are all waiting for me to give them a plot, characters, a problem, a solution, a climax, and a period at the end of the last sentence of the story. I have 8 flash drives that are practically filled with all my story ideas, and I want to finish every one of them. I love to write, because I can express myself, tell a story, and say that I created something out of nothing. I want to be a writer when I am older I guess I am one now, but I want to do it and show the world my ideas. I know a lot of people would say that they hate writing essays and just hate writing in  general but I do not because I actually get excited to write something with a focus for once. I take writing prompts as a challenge and accept them gladly. Writing takes time and effort, but the final outcome is worth it. I truly believe that to be so.

Indiana Jones, Tomb Raider, and Going to space

             When I think about adventuring and exploring I always think about an Indiana Jones movie, a Tomb Raider video game, and even the exploration of space. All of these adventures want to discover and find new things that no one even believed to be possible. People have explored the great unknown by sailing across the world to find new ways of life and have acquired new materials for the world the entire world to see. Others have explored by simply going to lands that no one dare visit for pleasure, because of how dangerous the places may seem. Deep jungles, pyramids, the deep ocean, and mountains all have their secrets to be revealed, but if no one decided to be the one to step up and explore them I do not think we would have the knowledge we have today about those places.
    I believe that people have devoted themselves to a life of exploration because they want to follow their dreams of making history. I think that they want to discover something new for the purpose of  new knowledge on a subject, and they want to give people in the outside world proof that things other than the norm exist out there somewhere. I think they also want to live a life of danger and daring adventure, because of all the things out there to see and do. If I were to be an explorer I am sure it would be oh so extravagant to see all the things in the world or even in space. I think that explorers also have natural curiosity in them that makes them want to know and find the unseen and unknown.
     The sacrifices one must make to live life on the edge as an explorer are very harsh, because they have to leave everything behind them. Having a family is almost out of the question, because they are moving around so much and doing unsafe dangerous things it would be hard to have or make a family life. It would also be harsh to leave behind the ones that they love but it is a sacrifice for what they want to do. I also think that they would be giving up everything and risking their lives to go on the adventure, since there are many dangerous risk that could befall the explorers.

I'm not good at lying...

       I have always been one for telling the truth. Have I lied before? Yes, at some point in my life I have lied. However, I have never lied to anyone in an extreme or difficult situation. To be honest I don't think I could possibly do that, because I am not a very good liar at all. I usually get caught every time I am lying. Lying to someone about something serious is not the right thing to ever.Telling them the truth will help the situation lying will only make everything worse until the situation is at its worst. I think there are exceptions to lying, if there are children in a dangerous disaster to help them stay calm is a top priority  Telling them the truth may cause problems, and lying may be the only solution. If lying to them takes away any scary thought it would be for the best, until they are old and mature enough to understand.  Sometimes people tell lies over and over until they are caught in their own web of lies, and have a hard time getting away from the spider or facing the truth.

Me Academically.

        My high school experience has been with ups and downs, especially since I am in an Early College High School program. Since I am in this program I have had to work harder, but I will be able to accomplish  many of my goals. In my entire life I have had many academic struggles and academic achievements that have led me to pursue my aspirations.
    I have struggled in school many times in my life, even though I am a very good student. I have had many problems with asking for help when I truly need it. I always try to figure out my school work on my own instead of asking for help. Sometimes I struggle because I do not ask for help. I struggle with studying for tests and quizzes sometimes, because I do not know what materials to properly study  In this event I do not study well, so I study very little. I have always had issues with math, because I think it is very confusing and a lot to process. I sometimes do not do so well in that area because I do not know what to study either. In contrast I have had my accomplishments to compensate for my struggles.
   I have many achievements for my academic works in school. I have always kept my grades up and I have never received an F on my report cards throughout my schooling. I was in the National Junior Honor Society for two years. In that time I am very proud of what I accomplished in the program, for I was making a difference  I did speeches and helped out in the surrounding community. In addition to my achievements I was accepted to Early College. When I received my acceptance letter I was ecstatic and I knew that through this program I would be able to accomplish amazing things I did not even know I could. I made it through my freshman year with ups and downs, and I am currently making my way through sophomore year. My accomplishments and struggles have caused me to aspire greatly.
     I want to accomplish many goals and aspire greatly in my academic future. I want to graduate from Early College High School with my high school diploma and my associates degree. I wish to pass my ACT tests, so that I do not have to keep taking them. I want to strive to go to college to become a writer or a graphic designer. I dream to do such things and one day I will  make them become realities.
      In my academic career I have had academic struggles and accomplishments that have made me want to pursue and accomplish my aspirations and goals. My struggles have made me work hard and to achieve great things, and my achievements have inspired me to aspire greatly in my academic future.

Bullying is not a pastime!!!

I think that people bully online because they think that they can get away with it. They may also think that since they are online it is a funny thing to do to others. They are not physically hurting them so they think that it is okay, but they are wrong it is never okay to bully someone ever.
I think someone would be more likely to take a stand for someone who was being bullied in real life than online. I think this because if someone was being bullied in front of everyone in public someone would try to stop it. Cyber bullying is sometimes hard to crack down on because it is done privately online and not in public.
If someone was being bullied in front of me I would stand up for that person and help them. I know what it is like to be bullied. Bullying hurts and it is not funny just stupid and immature. Everyone should respect others and accept them for who they are. It is not hard for anyone to do. No one should judge someone else because of their looks or because of who they are. Bullying should never be a past time.

Honor Among Thieves?

    There is no right for someone to take or claim property that do not belong to them. This is honestly called thievery and being a thief is wrong. People work hard for what they have, so why should anyone take what they worked for away? When someone's house is robbed and everything is taken the people living there may have lost everything they worked for. It is not fair for someone to take everything away.
     If I were to take away a lollipop from a child I would be in the wrong because it did not belong to me in the first place. The right thing to do would be for me to get my own by not stealing or taking one from someone, but by buying my own lollipop.
   The only exception in stealing something is maybe if a mother's child was dying and her only solution was stealing medicine because she could not afford it. If it was her last resort maybe she could ask and get help but to save someone's life is important especially if it is a child because that child could be great in the future.
  I think taking property without a legitimate excuse is not right because someone else worked for their car, money that they have, and whatever else they work for. 

Heroes, victims, & the living

People go along with their peaceful lives, and when disaster hits panic arises. Within a disaster comes the danger of death. People risks their lives to save others. They are then heroes, because they feel as if saving someone is the right thing to do. Saving and helping others means that the person cares enough to save someone and has the heart to do so. That person's courage is strong and the world needs people with courage.
In disasters there is panic. There are Some that put their lives first. When panic rises people think of their survival. The instinct of survival makes people want to save themselves, so that they live and see another day. Even if that means only saving them self. Some of those people might feel a string of regret. They regret not doing something to save someone that they could have saved. In that moment it will haunt them until they learn to accept their mistake, fix it, and forgive themselves.
In the act of a disaster you can easily tell who is courageous, cowardly, and need desperate help.

Ol' Blue Eyes

If I could meet a famous person that person would be Frank Sinatra. I would want to meet Ol' Blue Eyes because he is a legend. I love his music and his lyrics. I think he is one of my favorite artists. I would ask him so many questions about his music, what inspired him, and what his time period was like. I would ask for his autograph and be hoping that he would say yes. Then after all the questions we would do the best on stage show ever. We would sing "Come Fly With Me" , "My Way", "The Way You Look Tonight", "New York, New York", and a lot more. "New York, New York" would be the finale. We would be on a stage that would open up and the Statue of Liberty would be right behind us as fireworks shoot up in the sky. Then, when it would be over the crowd would cheer,and I could say that I sang with Ol' Blue Eyes Frank Sinatra.

A Disney Holiday

        This Christmas holiday break was very interesting and surprising! This Christmas we had a Christmas table instead of a Christmas tree, which was kind of disappointing because I was hoping for the big tree in the corner of our living room. Unfortunately, that did not happen but Christmas was a surprise! I had asked my wondrous mother that I wanted Disney movies on DVD for Christmas. On Christmas morning I was so happy because there were Disney movies spread out on the table.
     I grew up watching Disney movies as a child, so they have a special place in my heart. Disney movies are not just funny movies they also teach lessons and morals. Each movie I think has some kind of lesson in it and they tell amazing stories about amazing characters. The rest of the break I pretty much watched all of the Disney movies I got and all the ones I already have. It was interesting re-watching them because I couldn't remember how most of them ended. It was also nostalgic reliving the childhood for those few moments. I do not own every Disney movie, but I do wish to build a library of having all or most of them one day.